not going to convocation day???

maybe allah give the bad things in my life right now, and maybe after this i will get everthing i want.. huhu... dunno ler.. still searching for the light at the end of the tunnel.. everything look blur and ucertain, dunno what will happe in forthnight time but im sure that i must face it... really need something to strengthen my spirit...

got SABAH!!!! damn!!!!

actually, b4 this i was quite cool ler if i dpt borneo,, but when i check and i got sabah.. the reality struck me.. byk terpikir mcm ner nk survive witout my family.. bcoz all this time they were my strength... i may not have a lot of frens,, but i know i have my family wit me... pretty sad... dunno ler whut will happen 2 me in sabah.. aiyahhhh!!! OMG!!! all this times, aduhai... takut, sedih semuanya ada... nk tinggalkan mak bapak.. now i feel how much i love them... damn!! allah,, give me strength to go thru this.. i dunno.. will this break me into pieces?? the tPublish Posthought of teaching is hard enough and now to be away from family wit people wit diff culture and language and i would be alone is juz scary.... would i survive???

3 days experience worked as CSR

ermmm... today i dpt incentive yg paling tinggi!! rm 11... hehehe... tp semlm was the worst day 4 me... sudah ler i made mistake when i want to change a customer order... then ada sorang makcik yg mcm siot jer leh maki2 aku... aku dh menggigil menahan kemarahan aku,, tapi aku berjaya control diri.. yg peliknya org melayu makcik nih.. selama ni aku cakap dgn cina or india walau mcm mana pun xpnh kena maki,, tp this makcik juz show that whatever race or religion u are,, if u are bad, u become a pathethic person... put that aside, menarik gak dlm 5 jam bercakap dgn lebih 50 org... sblm ni nk nuka mulut pun susah... hehehe

Domino!! more MONEY

first day aku jawab phone, amik order,, mcm2 jenis suara ada... tp really appreciate some of the people that really are patient and willing to speak politely... but some of them are juz smack of buckoff.... arini kul 6 aku mula full speed... nk wat duit kena ler try bazir air liur sikit... xpe ler,, aku try...

Confirm kerja di Domino as CSR

aku dh dpt kerja di call centre dominos... walau aku agak nervous giler bile kena audition depan trainer tu... aku pun xtau why until now i still nervous in front of people or interview... bcoz when i was in university, boleh dikatakan all the time aku pg depan wat presentation.. tp smpi skrg prasaan nervous tu masih kuat lg... why i nk kurangkn anxiety ni?? bcoz i think i can do much better if i can be more confident.. i will mumble of my voice will trimble.. tp esok akn akan start sbg customer service representative di domino... the pay juz rm3 per hour but if can persuade customer, they have incentive system,, this is where CSR can make money.. we must try to make customer buy as much as we can... my journey as CSR start tomorrow... my target incentive is about rm15.... hehehe

The Lonely Shepherd

Satu ketika dulu, aku slalu dgr instrumental flute ini dlm rancangan radio yg aku dh lupa apa nama stesen tu tp dlm segmen yg selalu begitu syahdu sgt... aku dgr lebih kurang beberapa tahun yg lalu.. dan mungkin ini takdir, ketika aku menonton cite kill bill, aku trdengar iringan lagu ini ketika The Bride mencuba pedang hazaro hantai or something like that... terus aku cari soundtrack kill bill dan akhirnya aku dpt lagu ni... drpd pemain flute terkemuka iaitu zamfir king of pan flute yg bertajuk lonely shepherd... aku boleh mendengar melodi ini dan membuat aku rasa tenang dan syahdu skali..

Surat konvoku

why life cannot be so much easier?? org kata if life xde dugaan maka xbest ler.. i beg to differ... terlalu byk cabaran menyebabkan aku menjadi patah semangat... how many times i have to get myself up to fight this never ending challenges?? im become tired, but i will always keep trying becasue that what i have...i only have HOPE... i hope tomorrow will promise better things for me,, that is why i keep on improving myself physically and mentally... i can be break many times but i know im strong enough and lucky to be in a great family that really make me feel that one day i want to build a family like what i have now.. dunt know ler.. juz keep on going coz life goes on no matter whatever happen... ini dugaan terbaru aku,, surat konvo xsmpi2 lg... sialan tul...

Training Day

mengikuti training di dominos sbg CSR or customer service representative basically amik order drpd customer ler.. semuanya simple jer cuma kena mengikut ler tatsusila melayan pelanggan. for me it would be good 4 me to see how i handle the customer. dan i pun xpasti lagi adakah i akn njoy this thing.. but surely it is better than wasting my time... at least masuk duit jugak dan keje nyer agak mudah, amik order jer... esok ada training bout the computer system plak.. hrp2 aku njoy ler job nih...

Aku mula bekerja

hidup ini tidak bererti bila hanya duduk memandang dinding dan menghabiskan waktu begitu shj... itulah sebabnya aku membuat keputusan utk bekerja di Domina Pizza sbg tukang amik order.. gajinya?? hanya rm3 sejam... jd kuli ler.. bkn ler sebab duit tp hanya inginkan pengalaman dan juga merasai new environment.. mayb i will learn a few things bout the call centre biz... all the best 4 me, hope i njoy this new job... heheheh

Berakhirnya satu DOSA

selepas hampir satu tahun aku melalui satu hubungan yg terlarang, kini aku bebas drpd rasa gusar dan gelisah... kadang-kala kesunyian mampu membuat manusia mencari sesuatu yg tidak diterima akal... hidup ini penuh dgn kenangan, tp aku xmahu sandarkan pd kenangan krn segalanya hanya lah satu chapter dlm hidupku... aku xmengetahui dimanakah salahnya.. prinsip hidup aku amat mudah, whatever happen in my life is because of my own doing... dunt blame others!! aku tanggung apa yg telah aku lakukan.. aku masih mencari erti hidup ini...

WE ALWAYS JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER

acapkali kt mengatakan rupa fizikal tidak penting, yg penting ialah hati budi seseorang. namun bg aku, fizikal lah yg memberi first impression terhadap seseorang itu dan sgt pentinglah kt mencuba utk mendapatkan bentuk fizikal yg mampu menarik perhatian orang. aku sendiri mempunyai pengalam kerna dahulu aku hanyalah seoarang yg obese dgn berat 120kg.. tetapi kini berat aku adalah 80kg shj... perubahan diri juga membawa kpd perubahan dlm kehidupan kerna segala-galanya berubah apabila kt mempunyai perwatakan yg lebih menarik dan menawan...

Hanya Allah tempat memohon ketenangan..

pabila manusia menghadapi seribu satu kegusaran, hanya kepada Allah yg maha esa tempat utk mengadu nasib dan memohon hidayah dan petunjuk..aku tidak tahu kemana arah hidupku, tapi yg pasti aku tidak inginkan kehidupan yg terpesong drpd berkat Allah S.W.T... yg pasti setelah aku berserah kepada-Nya,, jiwaku lebih tenang... aku akui yg bkn mudah utk mengubah gaya hidupku yg berlumuran dgn dosa, tapi aku telah mulakan langkah pertama.. Insyallah aku akn menjadi hamba yg beriman kepada sang pencipta.. Amin